I like my husband fat and need help? 10 points?

ok so me and my husband are both 25 have been married for 3 years now. so i have always been a chubby chaser because i am a small girl (im 5'0 and 100 pounds) and like to feel safe a protected by a larger guy. when we met 5 years ago he was 6'0 and 320 pounds so he was over weight. but over the years things have escalated and i have encouraged him to eat alot and unhealthy . like when some women say they get turned on they see their man work out i get turned on when i see my man eat and gain weight. hes knows hes gained alot of weight and hes been ok with it so neither of us brought it up and tried to stop. now hes 576 pounds and i just feel terrible. he could have died and it would have been all my fault. starting now im gonna start cooking him healthy meals and am gonna start working out with him and helping him. the only thing now is im still attracted to him being fat and i know its bad and that i need help what can i do to reverse what i think. i love my husband with all my heart i need help to have a healthy relationship.